Monday, November 22, 2010
I have been working completely full time as an aide since October which has been fun, but very tiring. I would like to thank Eric for working every day with very few breaks because I know how difficult it can be. As of last week, the family I work with found someone to work a few days a week not only to give me a break, but also because Eric will be working in LONDON (temporarily), and I'll be joining him. The plan is not to move there. Just working there as needed. Louisville, CO is still our primary home. :)
CP+B is in the process of expanding their satellite office in London to make it a full time shop. They could hire whomever they want to work there, but they want some of the "Crispin Culture" to be in the London office, and since Eric speaks German and has lived in Europe, he was a perfect candidate for the job.Along with the London news, Eric was put onto a new account (Milka chocolate), Eric was also promoted about two weeks ago! I am so proud of him! Not to mention he is just as handsome as ever.
I had quite the birthday day back in September. People thought I was a bit crazy, but I wanted to make my own cake (pictured below). It was a delicious Pineapple angel food cake and I dried out some pineapple slices to put on top - excellent choice - I am making it every year.
Right after I was done whipping the batter though, the power went out. I totally freaked out because I was afraid that I was not going to be able to make my fantastic cake, but an hour later the power was back on and my lovely cake as done just in time. Also, I had to shower in the dark and couldn't blow dry my hair so it's a bit unkempt.
Saturday, November 6, 2010
It's been a year since my dad died unexpectedly in a motorcycle accident. This time last year I was in Doylestown, PA, sitting at my parents' kitchen table after a last minute flight to Philly, reading my dad's will (he was a prepared guy like that) and sobbing. Feeling emotions that were totally new to me.
I got a little too nostalgic a couple times at work yesterday, just reading others' thoughts about him and browsing photos. Good thing I have an office so I could close the door for a couple minutes.
Friday and today, my whole family went out to Chinese food and visited our respective local temples in Denver (Jaime and me), Detroit (Daniel and Francesca), San Antonio (Jonathan and Andrea) and Manhattan (my mom and Ian). It's been great focusing on his legacy and all my memories. Some of my friends ask if I need to distract myself during this time so it won't be so hard. I don't think of it that way. If I made an effort to avoid the photos, the chinese, the memories and the talks about him, I would be missing out on all these feelings. Yes, it's difficult. Yes, most of the emotions are based in sadness, missing him, being sad for my mom and my 17 year old brother Ian who is still at home without his awesome dad. But it also helps me feel close to him. Remembering him and shedding a few tears, feeling a little wimpy and such, is much better than trying to avoid remembering him.
In a nutshell, I'm just grateful that I have a dad worth remembering so much. That's what it comes down to.
I miss him a lot. I haven't heard his voice in a long time. I don't have any videos of him, or saved voice mails or anything. My sister in law Francesca saved this last voice mail she got from him just over a year ago and she put it on her blog. Listening to it just now knocked me over. Thank you, Francesca. This might not mean much to you, but I'm embedding it here so I can get back to it easily. Even though this was just another phone call for him, the love in his voice captures who he was.
The last song I wrote before finishing up my latest EP The Thin of Thick Things was "Mourning is Love." It's a simple but heartfelt representation of how I've felt over the last year. I chose a blues structure for obvious reasons, but overall, the message is positive. You can listen to it here:
Monday, November 1, 2010
Anyway, the words are a mash-up of two Ray Lamontagne songs we like. "Shelter" was our wedding song, and "Jolene" has the line:
A man needs something he can hold on to
a nine-pound hammer or a woman like you
either one of them things will do
Every now and then I feel like I need a nine-pound hammer, but then I wake up and realize I have Jaime. She's much better (for me).